Monday 31 January 2011

是多,是少,在于你自己怎么想

31 Jan 2011

一个人是真心对你好,或者假情假意,不是一两天可以分辨出来。但是时间是一个很好的证明。我不敢说100%准确,但我觉得已经十拿九稳了。

自私的人,往往都只希望和你共富贵,而不愿和你共患难。所以如果在你低落的时候,还看到真正的友情,真心的关怀,和慷慨的援手,那你就应该好好珍惜他们。我想没有几个能够做得到了。

在我无助的时候,我感到很安慰,因为有父母的关心,朋友的陪伴和同事的协助。父母就不用说了,血缘关系是永远改变不了。至于朋友和同事,他们没有必要理睬。但是我看到他们尽量付出时间和精神,为的就是要配合我,帮我解围,让我开心。

曾经的我,觉得朋友不多而感到很孤独,其实不好的朋友,一个也觉得多;好的朋友,不用多,就算是一个,也都足够了。




Sunday 30 January 2011

难求啊

31 Jan 2011

人家说上天是很公平的,掠夺你一样宝贵的东西,它就会赏你另外一样宝贵的东西。
在这么不幸的一年里,我却有幸认识了一位贵人。
如果没有了他,我那一年是那么的平淡和难熬。
他的出现,令我灰暗的一年有了生气和意义,让我觉得那一年并不足以成为我的世界末日,也在我记忆档案里留下很深刻的脚印。
认识了他,让我觉得社会还存在很多人都觉得已经绝种的好人。
了解了他,也让我明白很多事情我应该看开一点。
我因该感到知足了。我衷心感激他,但愿他与家人能够平安,快乐。

我心乱如麻,慌张地寻觅,它依然消失了

29 Jan 2011

在一个阴凉的早晨,大概是7时30分左右,我带着疲惫的身躯,拖着沉重的脚步,装着昏沉的意识,心里却万分的兴奋,准备拿车去爬山。

来到停车的公路,两行都是停泊着车辆。以往常一样,从保安亭一直沿路走,走到昨晚停放我的宝贝汽车的地方。脑子顿时起了个问号,怎么没看见我的汽车,面前却停放了另外一辆轿车。

糊里糊涂的我,当时还不敢去想车子可能真的被偷了,却说服自己老懵懂,大概是忘了自己把车停在哪里。

心里还是开始觉得不对劲了。我于是倒头走,一边走,一边想着昨晚是星期几,几点回家,回来的时候把车停在哪里,下车前到底有没有上轮盘的锁,下车后又有没有把门锁上。

平日我就不敢肯定,但昨晚停车的情景的确还很清晰的播放在我脑海。我很清楚记得停车的位置,也很肯定有上轮盘的锁。

我依然不敢相信事实,再次说服自己眼睛模糊,看不到自己的宝贝。于是我又沿路再走,这次我按着遥控器,如果车子在附近的话,alarm必定会响起来。

心里越来越着急了,当时的心情仿佛就像一位母亲跟孩子失散了,四处慌张地找自己的孩子。

我终于崩溃了,无法再说服自己,被逼接受残酷的事实。于是就跑到公寓保安亭打听,也到隔壁商店的保安处询问,但却没有任何线索。

我坐在路旁,无助地东张西望,希望宝贝会出现在我眼前。我拿起电话,拨电给母亲,却连接不上。当时的我,感觉很不实在,心也寒了,开始想起近来发生不幸的事情。

跟母亲通电后,就开始找同事帮忙,载我到警局报案。在等他到来的2个小时里,我不愿回家,就毫无目标的在路上晃荡,累了就坐在路旁,在FB留言。偶尔跟母亲,父亲,同事,和一位同学通电,谈的越多,心就越酸,泪水也开始滑下了。

最后决定到邻近的mamak,叫了一杯milo,一直用手机连接到FB,心情也开始平复下来,过后也没有再哭了。伴随我六年的车,就这样离开我了。我多年的音乐珍藏,买了不久的NIKE球鞋,也随之消失。

不愉快的事情始终发生了,但却让我感受到温暖的亲情,和真挚的友情。谢谢大家。

Saturday 29 January 2011

A great rabbit year

I was told to have a great and prosperous 2011 year yesterday. But before it realizes, I have experienced a not-so-good year. Perhaps the good year shall only start in 2011 Chinese calendar year, which is after Chinese new year? Over the past one year, my purse was stolen, I had problems in relationship, I spent a lot on car for repair, and now guess what, after spending so much on the car and now it was stolen. To think optimistically, I shall feel glad to have a healthy 2010 year? This would be the last unlucky event I allow to happen in this year. Let's wish everyone to have a better year ahead. Happy New Year.

Tuesday 25 January 2011

Disciplined life

26 Jan 2011

I have been so disciplined for a couple of days that I go to sleep before 10pm. I do not force myself to follow the health protocol. I just automatically feel tired and sleepy when my body's clock strikes 9.30pm. At 10pm, I will shut my laptop down and put myself under the blanket, preparing for a 8.5-hour of sleep.

The next morning, unexpectedily I do not feel much better. I could hardly get up and open widely my eyes still. My energy is leaking every hour. After few hours, I turn to a lady with withered face and emotionally I feel ill.

For another one more night, I need to be "disciplined" again.

Saturday 22 January 2011

New Zealand's Attractions

22 Jan 2011

I read a book about New Zealand two months ago. As I came across with the places described in the book, I always searched for their pictures in Internet. I wanted to look at their beauty with my eyes instead of using my brains to imagine. Below are a few places worth to be mentioned, but I am so sorry that I have no time to do the thorough research and place the findings about each place here.

1) Auckland
2) Arthur's pass road trip
3) Apple farm
4) Akaroa
5) Franz Josef Glacier
6) Fox Glacier
7) Cromwell town of fruits8) Church of good shepherd at lake tekapo
9) Avon River
10) Lake Pukaki
11) Lake Matheson
12) Lake Dunstand
13) Lake Alexandrina, Twizel
13) Napier North Island
14) Lupin flower

Friday 21 January 2011

For the one

21 Jan 2011

This is a post specially for the one who has been helping me a lot throughout the year. It is my greatest pleasure to know him as a friend, and as a colleague. Sometime, I treat him as part of my family, sharing my unhappiness. I hope he does not feel frustrated every time I bring him troubles.

He is such a nice person that I have no excuse for myself to disappoint him. However, we should have our own track which lead us to different destinations as we are not in unity. I want to try my best to stand up and be independent, to cherish everyone who has put expectation on me.

"Unshareable" talk

21 Jan 2011

Life has been so different recently, and will be greatly different after a few more months. I have a lot to share, but I just feel it is not the time as I need to keep them secret. Some of you who have heard from me, you may be able to understand me.

Everything is going on track. No, I shall say they progress even faster than what I expected and planned. The closer I am to that day, the more agitated I am, and of course more things to think and plan.

Another two more weeks, after I have settled down, I will definitely write freely here and share my whereabouts. Please be patient and do stay tuned.



Friday 14 January 2011

Brainstorming S.O.S

14 Jan 2011

I have been whole day sitting in front of my monitor, looking at the same document, having only one thought on my mind, that is to enhance my first official proposal (first piece since my graduation) according to my manager's feedback. I've been thinking all day and getting nowhere. I keep the song "Love Paradise" by Kelly Chen repeating in my music player so that I can be delighted every second listening to it.

He has given me valuable comments on the draft that I did and it is time to enhance it to be more redeable for users. I actually understand all his comments, his expectations and I even agree to his point of view.

I just could not work out the exact way to improve the proposal though I have racked my brains. I have included all I know and I could into the draft. What else?

Simply it is because I am not in good condition/mood, or they are all I have to my best understanding?

Let's pray I can brainstorm on this during my journey back to my hometown later, so that I can greatly enjoy the lovely weekends.

Thursday 13 January 2011

Cooking Exploration 3

September 2010 - Jan 2011

1) Healthy lettuce wrapped with sinful nuggets and eggs

2) The Alliaceae Family

Leek, along with garlic and onion fall under the family of Alliaceae. I created a dish using three of them, stewing the leek, onion, garlic and glass noodles with Nam Yu and Fu Yu.

3) Stew Yam and Leek

I was addicted to yam after my Guilin's trip. This was my first attempt applying yam in my cooking. Similar to item 2 above, I made use of Nam Yu to stew the leek and yam. The outcome was a little bit disappointed as the yam was dehydrated and hence its texture was not good.

4) Braised Bihun with oyster sauce, mushroom and home made minced chicken

5) Baked capsicum with home made minced chicken

6) Fried Bihun

7) Glutinous rice

My first attempt making glutinous rice, and I was satisfied with the result. Ingredients include mushroom, luncheon meat, dried shrimps, onion and garlic.

8) Enchovies and carrot porridge with You tiao

9) Golden Mantou

Dip Mantou into stired eggs and fry them on a pan with butter replacing cooking oil.

10) ABC soup

A vegetarian pepper-based soup with carrot, onion, bean curd, potatos, tomatoes and chinese pickles, excluding meat.

Monday 10 January 2011

Bamboo Charcoal Bread


10 January 2011

I went to Pavillion yesterday and recommended by my friend to try the bamboo charcoal bread in Lavendar Bakery shop at the Food Republic food court. I saw the long queue once I reach the shop and I actually could not figure out the reason. Without thinking too much, I just moved around and looked for the bamboo charcoal bread. Here it was!!!




When I first saw this, it did not look like bread, but charcoal to me. I just wondered and asked my friend if the charcoal bread can really be consumed. She told me that the food made from bamboo charcoal is actually very good and healthy.

Most often, bamboo charcoal is used as an air and water purifier or in soap. I never expect it can be added into food. It sounds unappetizing but after searching more information about it from Internet, it is believed that it brings all of the toxin cleaning properties of charcoal to the food.

Try it out if you believe in this.


Sunday 9 January 2011

forgive but not forget

9 Jan 2011

很多时候,人被面子/执着/怨恨蒙蔽,认为"它们"没有价值了,而很潇洒地放弃它们。直到有一天,面子/执着/怨恨渐渐退了,却发现已经失去你其实还很在乎的"它们",但却不懂"它们"到底是如何消失的。可能当时你的确有遗弃它们,过后忘了,又或者不小心弄丢了,而自己不知道。

很多东西不是说丢掉就可以删除曾经发生的事情。因人而异,我个人会把它当作是回忆,管它是开心的,还是悲哀的。就算结局是不理想的,但也不能否认之前所发生的点点滴滴,特别是甜蜜和开心的。毕竟它们确实在我生命中留下烙印。最重要是就算伤心事被存在脑海里,也能够不被它们困扰,大概这就是所谓的"放得下"吧。

人因缘而结识,不该因不愉快的事情而把那宝贵的缘打破。刚刚看到朋友说了一句"可以不忘记,但一定要放得下"....

Forgive and Forget是很难,forgive but not forget更难。如果你是属于后者,而还是很想找到你正在寻找的东西,告诉我,我可能帮上忙,帮你找到答案。如果是我想错了,那就不好意思咯:)。认不认同我所说的,还是得需要你自己去分析。

友谊长存.....

Wednesday 5 January 2011

A challenging day

5 Jan 2011

The POS migration project has been initiated about a few months ago. It was put on hold when the manager was seeking approval for it. At that time, we have done with some analysis on the existing flows and come out with different diagrams.

After the approval, I was assigned to propose high level migration methods along with the pros and cons. I remembered how panic I was when I heard this. This is my first project in my working experience and I did not even know how to start the assignment. With the help of my senior, I finally passed through the 2 weeks time and managed to deliver the proposal. I just did the presentation today and it was indeed challenging. It seems like there is no gap to allow me for a short breath as more tasks are coming following the proposal.

The picture is getting clearer now and I shall start drilling down the analysis and I am expected to deliver another deeper level of proposal.

It would be formally kick-started in second half of February. I may or may not need to travel depending on budget. During this period of time, requirement document and gap analysis shall be carried out.

Tuesday 4 January 2011

这么近,那么远

05 Jan 2011

曾经的我们是那么的靠近,不愉快的事情发生后,我们在一日之间变得那么的生疏。

日子久了,彼此的关系又渐渐在虚幻的空间拉近了,但在现实生活中,我们仿佛像个陌生人,就算擦肩而过,也不会回头望一眼。

身体预兆

04 Jan 2011

今天起床就觉得怪怪的。明明睡足8个小时,怎么会好像全身没力,还加了一点点的喉咙不适和鼻子敏感。到了中午,连走路也慢得像只蜗牛,不过喉咙和鼻子却好多了。

可能它们意味着今天会有不寻常的事情发生吧。果然不寻常的事情发生后,身体不适就一个接一个的消失。首先来了好友的短讯,告诉了一个令人伤感的消息,过后也来了个另我受宠若惊的消息。本来后者会足以令我开心而抵消前者带来的悲哀,可能是时机的关系吧,在这个时候让我听见,反而令浑浑噩噩的我加上负担,也让我无法和心情不好的好友分享。

Options

04 Jan 2011

Why do people feel desparate when they are not given options and yet feel uneasy when they have many choices to choose from?

Would you prefer a life which is as simple as 1+1=2 than a+b=2 with many possible values to fill in a and b?

I guess the biggest challenge here is you have made a decision and then before you can execute it, another option comes in. And this option seems to be so powerful that even you do not pick it, it can still disrupt the execution of your initial decision.

If you have troubles in deciding, most likely each of them would require you to sacrifice differently and give you something different in return. If you are a greedy person who hopes to maximize the return with minimum losses, this may make you suffer even more. Why not just stick to the initial plan since you have no clue how to decide once again? :)

Sunday 2 January 2011

那得起,就放得下吗?

3 Jan 2011

“坐着,躺着都想着,
心烦,心痛免不了,
决定,难分对于错,
过了,唯有放下它。”

就算知道这不是我想要的,就算再次给我选择的机会,我或许还是会做出一样的决定,但我始终还不是能完全放得下。

或许脑海里还有太多的空间,无法把这份执著抛诸脑后。执着包含的都是情感,怨恨,回忆和抱负。

而我正是一个无时无刻都背着执著的路人。就算看到路途还很遥远,但两肩已经酸痛得不能再背着任何包袱了,我还是无法狠下心肠把背包留下。

可能是原则的关系吧,或者这也是另一份执著而令我无法抛下我所背着的包袱。

我觉得如果要我潇洒的摆脱那份执著,会物极必反。怎么说呢?如果要我立刻把背包放下而继续往前跑,当时我倒会觉得没有了重量而感到不自在,不习惯而开始想念之前一直陪伴着我的背包。

Saturday 1 January 2011

有和没有

2 Jan 2011

新的一年,有了新的领悟。在COLD STORAGE看到一个西饼/蛋糕,包装成一个圣诞礼盒,觉得很大体,就买下来送人。礼盒两旁用一条彩带连接着,做成一个耳朵让我们可以提着走。

回家后想想,重点在于礼盒里的蛋糕,有没有耳朵,蛋糕还是一样,最重要是蛋糕要好吃。给了我一个耳朵,也不见得能方便我提着走。这么重的一个蛋糕,还是要捧着走较为安全。

过后用礼物纸把它包起来时,觉得耳朵反而很多余,索性就把它剪了。

对于某些人说,耳朵的存在给整体还是带来了一个不同的效果,看起来比较大体,精致,像是一个礼物。但如果再三想想,有没有发觉那个耳朵其实只是对表面或外表做出贡献,而对实质完全没有带来任何作用。人往往就是只朝着一个方向去看东西,奈何....